titanic
so yersterday i got up did some minor things and kinda just lost energy as the day progressed. My neice came home from school and we went to eat mexican, came back and i got online and stayed there till later when antm was on and my friend came over. Afterwards i dyed her hair, then scanned some pix, then bye bye. I got online, got on the phone, got into bed and goodnight again. That was pretty much it. Boring right? Well, i think that i am just stuck in a place i dont want to be in right now. I have lots on my mind and im also looking for a new place and a new situation, ive got tons to do, so much that im frozen. I need some help but dont know where to even begin, i keep telling myself strand for strand, but the truth is i dont know which strand off which rope to begin with. Everything is coming to a quick end and im stuck without an answer, no wonder i have trouble sleeping at night, the thought of inactivity is poison. yet here i am, online, waiting for that guillotine again.

whisper to a scream
ok lots to talk about...thurs never did go to neo, some big dummy blew me off, so i hung out at home and on the telephone. Fri came and i went to lunch w a friend, hung out, she drove me to the bottom lounge to meet up w da fools. Went in to see desmond dekker, pretty good show, lots of people i hadnt seen in forever, old and new. Then afterwards went out w the go jimmy go kids to exit and that was fun, they gave me a ride home in their tour van and that was fun as well...DESTROY! Finally got home. Saturday and i was up and running around. Saw old friend, hung out, got ready, saw friend, hemmed pants, got ready, took cab to bottom lounge, went to eat at clarkes, then went to get ready, friend did benny and mine makeup, then saw the rest of go jimmy go, got ready and went to do a pretty good show with LMDC. Hung out a bit afterwards after pix, then sang mastife while being kicked out. Too much fun.Then went home. Collapsed. Sunday got up early, tired, exhausted, hungry, went to go get ready for that show, ate something, did the International Pop Overthrow with The Sonnets, it was our last show for a bit since chuck quit, so then we did a great job, afterwards everyone was kinda emo, it was ok. Chuck left as if nothing, all was good. Afterwards, we all kinda sat around and talked. I got a ride home and met up w friend and her son, so there was 4 of us, plus my sister and her family over...and the pug...full house.Then everyone left and we ate and that was it.Monday and we got up and had breakfast, came back and hung out, then we went to bank, then thrift shopping, then home to get ready, then went to drive them home again. Saw ella enchanted, got sleepy, drove home exhausted. Tuesday got up, ate, practiced, cleaned a lil, hung out w animalia, then dinner w friend, then came over w another friend to watch lil britain and episode II, then they left and i stayed online and phone, awake, then crashed.OH YEAH! This upcoming sunday May 1st, im doing a solo show at gunther murphys for OVARIAN CANCER RESEARCH. Lotsa good bands, excellent cause! Cheap for all the band u get, and it sponsored by PBR so theyre gonna have FREE tshirts w PBR in the front and the flyer in the back. So go!!!

chilly chilly
Ok...so the first day of my campaign was met with some small supporters...what was it, 9 people? Thats a good start, i get 9 people a day and im golden. As far as bassists go, theres promise there too. I have already got 3 offers and am looking to schedule a tryout for them and see where that takes me.The recap.Hardly slept again, woke up did some of the usual chores blah blah blah, went with sister and neice to airport to drop off car, pugs, sister, went to eat lunch w neice. Had motza ball soup and greek platter, was stuffed royally.Came back, no sonnets rehearsals. Hung out, had Calypso rehearsals at 7, friend came over, walked w me to rehearsal hall, went and rehearsed, was fun/funny, got a lift back w congas home (4blks) then got online, then talked on phone and went to bed. My eyes were burning for being so tired. I wanted to hit neo, but sleep caught up with me.
da end.

Thursday, April 21, 2005
VOTE 4 VEE
i am officially running for future
PRESIDENTE DE LA REPUBLICA DEL ECUADOR!
tell a friend...lets vote for change, reliability, and above all FUN!
say no to dishonesty, corruption, and bullshit politics
vote 4 me
vote 4 vee
p.s. this aint no joke...lets get enough people interested in real politics
for the people, by the people
i wanna see how far we can take this!!!

kid gloves
so yesterday i hardly slept, no shocker there, got up and pretty much cleaned and made fruit salad for my sister and i. took out dogs, enjoyed the overcast skies, spent lots of time w cats and dog outside. fed them, then got online a bit. then i just hung out, then my friend came over to go camera shopping, so we went got some mexican food, then went to the stores to shop comparison, then came back and soon enough it was time for antm, so my other friend was called and she sure enough came over, and my sister ordered some pizza(which maries fucked up), fried mushrooms, baked cheese ravioli, and sodapop. So then we watched kevin hill, then eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, then part pretty in pink, part dickey roberts. Then the girls left and my sister went to bed so i got on the telephone after cleaning up a bit, then dreamland. All is good. All is good.

i am in paradise
ok, so i had a bit of a freakout yesterday. one never knows how theyre gonna handle things once they happen. I suppose like a relationship of any sort, even if things are going badly, one usually hangs on in hopes that things will work out and keep a bit of optimism open. So when that door does finally shut in your face and so much time and effort went into it, as well as feelings, then it is a cold dose and really hard to deal with at first. All the dissillusion, discontent, anger, bad energies, insecurities, laments, all of it basically drapes you in a cocoon of over-protection. So i felt different from minute to minute, especially since i had to keep on explaining the situation to friends and other bands with precious little words and a heart full of resentment. How else was i supposed to handle it? So now that the day gave way to reasoning and i took a good look at the situation it made more sense. I had made peace with it and look forward to the new challenges that a new direction will bring. I of course am at the helm and the new things i will work on will bring me closer to this new ideal. There are few new restrictions and i will have all the say in the world as to which way things move towards. I may have been a bit unfair with my scathing views, but honestly, it was a fun ride and it will end with a bang come sunday. That i will most definately be looking forward to because i am going to celebrate my resiliance at doing exactly what ive wanted for this long while still in decent health.So after i got the news i emailed the hell out this show to make sure everyone knew the deal and that they wouldnt be seeing us for a bit onstage. A lot of mutual friends have been great and offered support and the job search for a new bassist doesnt seem to be too bad off.So after the mass emails, i took a long long needed nap and just let myself rest with this. When i got up, i washed the dishes and made dinner for the family, kiddies too. Afterwards i got online and did some things around the house. I spoke on the phone a bit, then later i met up w our label owner who wanted me to come over and talk about shit, so i did and we did, and we tried to talk some things over the future and current status of the label.I drove back home a bit after the bar closings so then i got online and chatted for a few, then i got on the phone and the rest went down to happy comfortville. I shut off the phone for the night (3am) and let all the stress and tension exit thru sleep. I woke up rather early, and spent a good portion of the morning with the animalia outside enjoying the overcast skies. the breeze was great and i feel awesome to be experiencing this new spring.

Are The Sonnets really over???
Special News bulletin.This cant be happening, but it is...
Longtime Sonnets bassist has officially quit the band.
Last show together will be sunday april 24th at the
beat kitchen 2100 w. belmont, chgo. 3pm (yes, the afternoon)
we are a part of the International Pop Overthrow thats why...
Now interviewing for replacement.
urgghhhh!

Ok
Im going to try something new here...
ive been writing blogs for MYSPACE and ignoring Blogspot, so wtf,
im doing both...
so here is the latest and some old crap...

Tuesday, April 19, 2005
suss
k, so then there was friday, then saturday the big show day, and there i was, doing my usual running around all afternoon, couldnt sleep to save my life, woke up, did crap, ran and took friend to bike shoppe, then grocery shopping, then to her house, then ran to friends work, then home, then got ready, then load in, then freaked out cat eyes, then did show, then sweated like crazy, then played some, then saw other bands, then played some more, then joined friends in conversation, then went to breakfast, then laughed a whole lot, then went home, then slept a lil, then up again, then made brunch, then took friend to former apt, then picked up kid, then went to eat dinner at diner, then drove friend to home, then watched predator vs alien, then drove home, then collapsed. Finally woke up by phonecall, then cleaned, then took out pets, then got online to check emails, then practiced and wrote new melodies, then friend came over, then went to get tix from friend, drove friend home, then went to get mom, then drove to theatre for the latino film fest and an ecuadorian film, then saw friends in line, then mom saw friends, then we sat by them, then watched movie, pretty good i must say, impressed the hell outta me, then dvd fucked up, then place was pissed cuz we were 3/4 of the way through and wanted to know how it ended, then left dissapointed, then went to get pizza w mom, then ate and left, then drove mom home, then tried to install solitaire but wouldnt work cuz it was windows 95 not 98 compatible, then drove to foot, talked to ol friends and pals, then closed it down, then drove to gas station, then took out pets, then got online...hello.

Saturday, April 16, 2005
walls are walls
so yesterday i contemplated going out to neo, didnt really feel it, thought better the use of the phone. Couldnt sleep well, insomnia took over, started to write again...felt kinda off time...wondered why i was so out of it.Slept in a bit after getting up at dawn, dog pissed everywhere in the kitchen, had to clean up the euphrates he left me. Mopped. swept. threw out trash, did dishes, cooked, cleaned, crashed in bed. Tried to get up early for some art exhibit thingy, didnt happen. Wound up practicing and working out some song compositions. Decided not to go out tonite again, was going to promote but thought what the hell, its really fitting. Havent been out in forever, forgot about the foot crew and all that. Tomorrow is the show at silvies. Already recieving some bad blood. Lets see what happens. Its going to be interesting to say the least. No one better fuck w me, i dont wanna go that route.So now its early morning and ive yet to sleep...i should go write some more. I need to get out of my house.

Thursday, April 14, 2005
tard
ok, so then tuesday rolled around and i didnt do half as many things as i woulda liked to, but, i did manage some easy chores round here, i believe, then i went to finish the day doing more practicing guitar and chatting/phone, taking out pugs, then in the evening had practice w calypsonians, came back, did nothing but email and shit like that. Wed morn i was freezing, bad draft, got woken up nice and early, did some more chores, sister came to get pugs, talked a bit, did some cleaning, she took off, got picked up by friend in afternoon for lunch, had thai, went to do mega laundry at her place, watched antm at her place, came back after last load dry, sleepy, chatted/phone, all was good, went to bed.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005
sorder
came to monday, stuffed up, literally aching, pain above nose bridge, too tight, went w friend to look at puters, played awesome solitaire, went got some panini sammiches, went home, saw pugs, friend played w pugs while i was passed out, pug pissed on futon (gross), woke up, was mad, friend left, got to cleaning, got online, friend came over, watched tv, talked, ate cookies, talked more, watched more tv, friend missed bus, friend spent night on futon (gross), forgot to tell her (gross), spent night in bedroom, slept little, woke up, friend left, dogsat pugs again, took pugs out in rain, sister came over, put pug on futon, pug peed on futon again (gross, not kidding), went to clean room.

Monday, April 11, 2005
CLAP CLAP
recap from who knows when...thurs sick, stayed in bed, friday sick, stayed in bed, saturday sick, made dinner, friend over, went to see my friend spin for a sec, ran home and stayed in bed, sun made breakfast, drove friend home, picked up ecua-rotisserie chicken, drove s.side to meet up w family at moms, ate, slept, watched tv, played w pugs, drove back w neice in new car, went to rehearsals, went home, talked on phone, crashed.

Thursday, April 07, 2005
a quick one
wed. picked up friend, came over, watched ray, ate. thurs lazy day, ran errands, had dinner, went out to dance at neo. fri took friend to work, ran to get my cuz visiting from ecua, took her deep s.side to see mom, met up w other cuz and aunt, left in a hurry to pick up friend from work, got caught by train, got there late, went to buy tix for movies, got pizza!, went to see sin city, came home and crashed. sat. took friend to work, went to pick up friend w her car, drove em home and unpacked groceries, had friend make din din, ate, went out to see venom lords, went out to dance at hideout w djs soul millionaires and missed robyn hitchcock! nooooo! sunday lazy day, called friend, didnt answer, got desperate looking for car, finally another friend helped out, drove friend home, ate at some diner round the clock, came home, collapsed. monday did nothing but clean. tues. went mad w spring cleaning, cooked, went to rainbo w friend, came home, died. wed. sat around feeling kinda sick, watched tv., practiced guitar, wrote music, friend came over w soup, talked, slept.

Monday, March 28, 2005
someone stole my thunder
so thurs came about and i got up early to do chores, then saw friend for lunch, did some more running around, went to pick up friend, went to neo for anniversary of planet earth, stood in rain drinking old wine and getting pissed off, finally after an hour and 5 minutes was able to get inside, danced immediately to dry off or warm up, danced some more, saw some old friends, danced more then drove to friends house who was driving mutual friends car (she was fucked up). Had berry pie, chips and salsa, laughed, passed out on couch, drove home. Friday went to breakfast, cleaned, kiddies came over, made lunch, hung out, took nap, got ready, ran to pick up friend, performed a solo show, ran out, went to holiday, got bored, went to house sit, watched movie, went home. Sat. went to breakfast w friend again, went home, talked on phone, made lunch again, cleaned room well, went to pick up friend from airport, drove home, picked up sisters car, went to pick up friend from work, went home, ate dinner, got ready, went to do show w The Sonnets, stayed late, drove friend home, drove home, was very quiet.Sunday, woke up, did some chores, made brunch, drove friend downtown, went back home, drove everyone to mommas, had easter dinner, got stuffed, watched incredibles - again, ate italian ice (yummy), got ready, drove everyone back, kiddies house, then our house, called some people, collapsed exhausted.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005
yesterday man
so i woke up really early after my late nite ride, 7am, ran to oakbrook, drove back, switched off cars at gas station, took friend and son to airport, drove back, got online, got tired, took nap, woke up, made dinner for kiddies and fam, went to rehearsals, went to islands, went home, ate, spoke, went to vertigo to drop off posters, went to foot.Saw couple of friends. drove friend home, crashed.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005
creeping
so then monday came and i drove my friend to work. i went home and vegged, i wasnt really in the mood to do anything and i didnt. the house was dirty and in serious need of cleaning, dishes in sink, bed not made, etc. SO then after picking friend up, went home, watched waiting for guffman, made dinner, drove friend back home...got home late. died.

Monday, March 21, 2005
plain crash
so sat came around, dropped my neice at yorktown mall, drove back, went to kinkos off clybourn WHY???? theyre incompetent idiots who fucked up my posters and tried to charge me 11 dollars for them and say its my fault? fuck them, plus they were rude as hell.got to friends work late, picked her up, back to my place, made dinner, watched some tv, hung out, went to karaoke party for friends bday and surprise, anothers friends bday was there too!too funny.was kinda awkward...so after an interesting fight, left.sunday was lazy day, hung out, watched movie, went to rehearsal, went out for dinner, then a friends friends house. Hung out, went home. sleep.

Yeah ive been getting lazy about keeping this blog up since myspace took over.
But i think this will work as well.
News news news:
The Sonnets keep hitting college stations in a good fashion. Hopefully the campaign will keep going as we need to keep hitting it up for sustained exposure. Where will it go? Who knows. All i know is that i love my songs and they will always be mine no matter what.
Rehearsals are few between and it concerns me because we are resting on laurels. The Sonnets need a jolt of success to keep it rolling, and hopefully the International Pop Overthrow in Chicago will help The Sonnets achieve some home town recognition.
Lots of shows on the way as well.
Check our website at: http://www.geocities.com/vsonnets
Im not dj-ing anymore at the Club Foot. Apparently they have no need for me.
Sorry i didnt get to spin one last time but it was 'beyond my control'.
more blogs to come.

Sorry for the absence. I know its been a while and it is primarily due to my obsession with MySpace and the like. I am going to try and get our new website up along with some nice things like a bulletin board and all kindsa downloads and hopefully even video. It should be sweet and hopefully kinda up b4 the new year really takes off.
We have so far done 2 shows and 1 radio programme with Steve Glover. His drumming is coming along quite nicely, even though it is sometimes easier to miss Daisun. I realize that sounds kinda bad, but the truth of the matter is, i spent more time with him than anyone, well almost anyone... i think Chuck Uchida is coming up fast on that accomplishment.
There are some new songs i am currently working on, although the direction is kinda wierd.
I want to play up to Steve's strengths but i cant help but write brash new songs that showcase all the types of things ive been listening to as of late...things like the adverts, damned, partisans, etc. There are a couple of things i have in mind though, just to keep the balance.
I really really need to get out of this city, not that its bad but i honestly need a change of scenery because this is kinda driving me nuts playing the same venues with the same audience. We have a good cd out, it should make a difference if people get to hear us. I just gotta promote more.
So im going to figure out a way to make money to pay off debts and get this thing going.

So then Daisun left. Left us in the dust to clean up and to find a very difficult replacement on such short notice. It sucked. Audiotioned only 2 new drummers, and in the end we welcome the latest member, Steve Glover on drums.

Ahhh, so im having a blast with this MySpace site. We have gotten lots of compliments and it is just pretty kick ass the amount of people digging us who woulda never heard us unless stopping by on accident. If u wanna check it out, its:
http://www.myspace.com/thesonnets
Not terribly difficult. Anyway, not heard from either member this week. Im sure i will see one or the other sometime, but till then, i guess im gonna stick to promotion. Tonite shall be thee promotion night. I have yet to pound the pavement like i did during that show in May. Even tho the end is kinda near for this lineup, it feels like the beginning. More later.

Yeah, so the 4th was a pretty fun deal. Aside from us having to fill in for Bible of the Devil who were playing at the Empty Bottle. But it was cool regardless cause we got to see the fireworks show while playing...especially during Gemini. Yeah, if there is anything The Sonnets can do right, is play during special moments such as watching everyone unloading their illegal fireworks at once. Rich from I love Rich and Rob from the Drip helped Vee out singing NEW ROSE by The Damned. It was actually pretty funny after we were done, when Rob did post-song interviews. All in all a fun time had by all. Still, we are in serious need of a drummer...know anyone???

(vee from The Sonnets complains yet again) Another day of birth. JeeZ. It is indeed an angry day for me, for reasons far beyond anything i even want to touch.
Why cant i get what i really want?
I wanna leave.
Thats what i want more than anything.
Is to get up and leave.
v.

So not much in the drama dept. We are losing our drummer eventually, but until that happens, we will ride it out. Aside from that, not much else. M time has been spent trying to do for others and help anyone i can assist. I wanna get awa, but im not sure where too. South America beckons. Looming larger than life, it is always the best trip because it makes me aware and humble and energizes me to deal with the crap here. one day i will return for good and never look back. But what about love? It exists only when necessary i guess...sometimes you dont get to experience all of it. Just little chards of content and hopes here and there, but nothing is as good as deep dark passion that provides the fodder for this bored to death writer. Write about something interesting? I dont know, was i really ever interesting to begin with?

Not knowing which way is up, i kept my eyes on the cracks and the small rocks and twigs. Truly this is springtime when everything shifts and airs change or the same feelings turn sour and poisoned.
I wanted everything better at once, but found it hard to keep a steady unwavering course. The flesh was calling out to others and all morality turned to trivial excuses.
Now challenges present themselves in such open forums that i cannot look away nor pretend that needs do exist. I am failing like my father. I need to relax and let go of things, even if i am being honest.
This time, i think i need to lie for the better.

Time spent, fixing things, sending out mass emails, getting new shows, practicing, hanging out, promoting, doing grfx, phonecalls, pets, cooking, and more grfx. I need a break from all this.
That said, im happier than i have ever been. I like this life. Although i am very very tired from helping sofi move yesterday. 9 hours of pure lifting and organizing made me tired. Today i am going to take it easier.
On a bad note. More bassist problems. Not cooperative, our bassist doesnt wanna play in dubuque again. Says its a problem of the psyche/ego. Whatever, we are not gonna stay here playing the same places over and over ad naseum. What matters is what we do, that is what we are. Who are we going to let dictate to us what we are, our value, and what we will do in the future? Thats what integrity and belief in yourself and confidence is. You cannot convince others unless you are convinced. IF u give in, you are pretty much on the decline. I dont think that we should back off, but rather pound our way into their hearts and minds. Thats what its about. Fucking disgust, what lame excuses abound!

Alright alright. This past weekend was spent traveling as well as performing and seeing our friends Echo 3, and playing with Kellysauras' band Tuffy. We have been getting a great response from our new CD preview and it feels pretty good. I was a sweat bath for two days though.
The cover art is resolved for the moment, and the swedish thieves have backed off somewhat so its a bit less stressful.
The country road driving drove our dear bassist nuts. He almost lost it. Completely different than i am. He hates twisting winding roads, whereas i love em. He likes long stretches w cruise controls, and i fall asleep and nearly kill everyone w them.
Got a busy April coming up with tons of shows.
Hopefully something good will happen soon.

Ahhh friggin day of hell. I was sick. Sick as in flegmy. Neon green and yellow! So i played the last 2 shows fine. Im getting really sick of being the only one busy enough to bother with this album crap.
I wanna work doing something new. i want to do something kinda useful.
Maybe a volunteer?
I dunno.
In either case, this is the deal...i gotta work it out.
Im so boring i could pass out from just thinking about how boring i really am.
Sleep never helped me anyway.

Stupidity is king i see. I not only get to see the fruits of a lot of years of hard work destroyed by ignorance, apathy, and general arrogance, but also by the selfish nature in everyone. As far as my sanity is concerned, its leaving me pretty quickly. I dont care. I never did. So needless to say, i am still willing to fight for what i believe in, even if it is alone. So i will keep you posted on the happenings. Just watch them mess w me.

Yesterday i did nothing but sit around. Around the afternoon i decided to go pick up my friend from the airport and then went out to dinner. After that i went to go do an interview for a friend who may get us into a magazine. Then i dj-ed at Club Foot and went home.
Today i took care of my neice and hung out w her. We watched movies and ate together.
I HATE THAT FUCKING SWEDISH SONNETS BAND! Something i have worked at since 1992 is in jeapordy of being co-opted by those morons. AND NO ONE FUCKING CARES!!! This is the kind of shit i have to deal with all the time in regards to this fucking band. What a joke!