Time spent, fixing things, sending out mass emails, getting new shows, practicing, hanging out, promoting, doing grfx, phonecalls, pets, cooking, and more grfx. I need a break from all this.
That said, im happier than i have ever been. I like this life. Although i am very very tired from helping sofi move yesterday. 9 hours of pure lifting and organizing made me tired. Today i am going to take it easier.
On a bad note. More bassist problems. Not cooperative, our bassist doesnt wanna play in dubuque again. Says its a problem of the psyche/ego. Whatever, we are not gonna stay here playing the same places over and over ad naseum. What matters is what we do, that is what we are. Who are we going to let dictate to us what we are, our value, and what we will do in the future? Thats what integrity and belief in yourself and confidence is. You cannot convince others unless you are convinced. IF u give in, you are pretty much on the decline. I dont think that we should back off, but rather pound our way into their hearts and minds. Thats what its about. Fucking disgust, what lame excuses abound!

Alright alright. This past weekend was spent traveling as well as performing and seeing our friends Echo 3, and playing with Kellysauras' band Tuffy. We have been getting a great response from our new CD preview and it feels pretty good. I was a sweat bath for two days though.
The cover art is resolved for the moment, and the swedish thieves have backed off somewhat so its a bit less stressful.
The country road driving drove our dear bassist nuts. He almost lost it. Completely different than i am. He hates twisting winding roads, whereas i love em. He likes long stretches w cruise controls, and i fall asleep and nearly kill everyone w them.
Got a busy April coming up with tons of shows.
Hopefully something good will happen soon.

Ahhh friggin day of hell. I was sick. Sick as in flegmy. Neon green and yellow! So i played the last 2 shows fine. Im getting really sick of being the only one busy enough to bother with this album crap.
I wanna work doing something new. i want to do something kinda useful.
Maybe a volunteer?
I dunno.
In either case, this is the deal...i gotta work it out.
Im so boring i could pass out from just thinking about how boring i really am.
Sleep never helped me anyway.

Stupidity is king i see. I not only get to see the fruits of a lot of years of hard work destroyed by ignorance, apathy, and general arrogance, but also by the selfish nature in everyone. As far as my sanity is concerned, its leaving me pretty quickly. I dont care. I never did. So needless to say, i am still willing to fight for what i believe in, even if it is alone. So i will keep you posted on the happenings. Just watch them mess w me.

Yesterday i did nothing but sit around. Around the afternoon i decided to go pick up my friend from the airport and then went out to dinner. After that i went to go do an interview for a friend who may get us into a magazine. Then i dj-ed at Club Foot and went home.
Today i took care of my neice and hung out w her. We watched movies and ate together.
I HATE THAT FUCKING SWEDISH SONNETS BAND! Something i have worked at since 1992 is in jeapordy of being co-opted by those morons. AND NO ONE FUCKING CARES!!! This is the kind of shit i have to deal with all the time in regards to this fucking band. What a joke!

After my sister left, i was left alone w the internet and cable tv. Did i really have to watch Showgirls again??? Why was it so interesting when i laughed at it so many years ago??? Anyway...i kinda sat around eating the party leftovers and drinking coke. Not at all what i had planned but whatever. Either way, all is good and i lounged for the whole day. It was kinda cold too, so when i took out the dog, it was nice to feel the below zero cold breezes as opposed to annoying cold house drafts. Went to bed around 4am and dreamt lots of wierd dreams. Damn that showgirls!!!

Ok, yesterday was a wierd one. My neice turned sweet 16, so my sister and i had a small party for her with lots of ecuafood (hornado, arroz con pollo) and loud r&b. Was coo. Then i had to rush and set up at the club we were playing at. The other 2 bands never showed up, so it was just us the whole night. 3 hours of rock. I was so tired and kinda deaf afterwards. That was kinda troubling. My hearing never suffers from shows, but somehow the guitar amp and drums near my right ear was too much and i suffered my first hearing loss. Hope it isnt permanent. Aside from that, i woke up today and my sister and i talked and ate. Shes leaving out of town so im gonna be all alone this week. Hope my dog dont spring another of his famous leaks. Does anyone know anything about immigration laws? Im looking to help a friend.

I woke up, hung out w my sister, sewed, made food (seco de pollo), and went out into the snowy night. I then went out...till 5am, then had to pick up my friend and take her to the airport. We got stuck in traffic. but all was good. I saw some old friends last night, pretty cool. More later.

And again, nothing new to say. Well, thats a lie. We have a show on Saturday. It is gonna be a wierd one considering our bassist's dad just died. Maybe it will help him get out his frustrations and pain. As far as the cd is going, I have kinda been not so much dealing w the label guy. The artowork has caused so much stress and grief on everyone that i consider it a big downer for now. Maybe this weekend I will work the strength up to deal with it.
So should I or should i not go on tour? I have been asked by the Echo 3 band to join them around the SW and im not really sure if thats gonna cut into their budgets or not. I have never been to the southwest and have no idea what its like, but itll be interesting road tales thats for sure. Leaving winter wonderland and going to cactusland must do wonders to a touring van.
I gotta get some sleep.

So here is the start of it all. People from all over will know everything and nothing at once!